Let's Not Lose Each Other

My dear friend,

I hope this letter finds you someday but may that day not be today. I want it to find you after a couple of years when you read it, somewhere under the night sky and the stars, but I want to be the one who finally tells you about it. I want you to read it with me. I want us to read it together. Someday but not today.

When I first met you, well, I met you a couple of times before I could finally meet you. A little complicated, isn’t it? But so am I, and who would be a better person than you to know about it. I have met many people but nobody who could smile like you. You smile not just with your mouth but with your eyes, lips, and cheeks. I could see right through you when I first met you. For the first time in my life, I saw no flaws. All I could see was your heart beating and giving you an extra dose of blood and hope with its rhythm. You have a heart of bronze. A mixture of a plethora of emotions and a combination of millions of dreams you carry forward with you. But it lasts. It may not shine the brightest, but it will last longer than that gold.

To be honest, I never wanted to be this close to you. Because when I met you, I was broken. I did not want to get involved in friendship but, most importantly, with what comes after that. My heart had been broken several times, but you know what used to hurt me the most was when a friend left. Friends have always been important to me; when they leave, they take part of me with them. A part of me they did not want to keep but did not want to return to. So, I was afraid to get close to people, but your smile changed everything. It changed me, but most importantly, something inside me. You reminded me that love can never really die in the hearts of those who know how to hold on. You are a clumsy keeper, my dear friend. In your eyes, I could see a world where hatred did not exist and where love was in abundance.

I used to see people as puzzles, but with you, I did not feel the need to solve anything. You did that for me. You helped me live a little more every passing day. Let’s not lose each other because if we do, we’ll lose something beautiful. We will lose parts of each other in each other. If we depart, we will have to let go of emotions that we spent years building on. I do not want that to happen. I want us to keep being friends. With time, our memories will fade, and our hearts will tell us to love each other a little less every passing day.

I want to tell you that if we hold on, we will create a better world for each other or maybe a better world for each other.

The day you read this letter will be the day, years from today, with a heavy heart and tears rolling down your eyes because you will know how much I love you. If we lose each other, I do not want this letter to find you because the feelings will be safe in these words, and you know that when I have nothing left, words are my last resort. So, let’s not lose each other because what we have is special. For me, you are special and always will be.

A heart that loves and a heart that wants to hold onto us.

Yours M.